Day 5

Still having bad insomnia...tried some advil pm but now I feel hungover. I must say that my emotions keep swinging...from complete sadness to anger to even joy in remembering our love and happy times but then back to sadness realizing the reality of today and his absence in my life. I both dread and anticipate hearing from him...I hope for a renewed love and healed relationship but keep thinking of break up scenarios and even more pain that I will have to deal with in the near future. This is madness! Please St. Jude, help me out of this dark place. I do appreciate the moments of peace and the fact I am not so depressed I cannot get out of bed, but I know this is not how God wants me to live my life. I'm doing the best I can but I need an end to this pain. Why can't I simply have this relationship? Why can't we simply be happy together, love each other and create a life together? Like what we were doing for over a year? Please, help me...I"m trying to have faith that all is happening as it should, but it is so very hard.

Novena to St. Jude

Most holy Apostle St. Jude, faithful servant and friend of Jesus, the Church honors and invokes you universally, as the patron of difficult cases, of things almost despaired of. Pray for me, I am so Helpless and ALONE.

Intercede with God for me that He bring visible and speedy help, where help is almost despaired of. Come to my assistance in this great need that I may receive the consolation and help of heaven in all my necessities, tribulations and sufferings, particularly help heal the difficulties in this relationship, so we can start anew with renewed love and commitment...and that I may praise God with you and all the saints forever. I promise, O Blessed St. Jude, to be ever mindful of this great favor granted me by God and to always honor you as my special and powerful patron, and to gratefully encourage devotion to you. Amen.

Prayer:

May the most Sacred Heart of Jesus be adored and loved in all the tabernacles until the end of time. Amen.

May the most Sacred Heart of Jesus be praised and glorified now and forever. Amen

St. Jude pray for us and hear our prayers. Amen.

Blessed be the Sacred Heart of Jesus.

Blessed be the Immaculate Heart of Mary.

Blessed be St. Jude Thaddeus, in all the world for all eternity.